but i thought clothing is a bad way too express yourself (im pretty sure thats what the professor said is philosophy with the dalai lama's book agreeing)
maybe if you are the one making the shirt but that would be more of a representation of your hobby of creating shirts rather than you being what your shirt portrays
if i remember right the professor was talking about how uniforms are worn in schools, because when you are somewhat equal in outward appearances you only have your personality (or as he said mind and soul) to show for who you really are. instead of viewing someone in some shallow way just by what they are wearing, that you are more than just what you wear
but i really dont care what i am wearing as long as its appropriate (not tiny shorts that i see some girls wearing, but thats a whole different psychological/sociological story now isnt it?)
but then again my brain isnt what it used to be, over the year out of high school barely being able to pass even 2 classes of community college.
but the thing with some of the mental illnesses is that it doesn't always have to be only the positive and negative symptoms together like that.
so its not always, the government is after me, i see dead people, im going try to juggle chainsaw underneath babies kind of thing.
it can mostly be negative symptoms which are Negative symptoms are deficits of normal emotional responses or of other thought processes, and respond less well to medication.[8] They commonly include flat or blunted affect and emotion, poverty of speech (alogia), inability to experience pleasure (anhedonia), lack of desire to form relationships (asociality), and lack of motivation (avolition). Research suggests that negative symptoms contribute more to poor quality of life, functional disability, and the burden on others than do positive symptoms.[20] People with prominent negative symptoms often have a history of poor adjustment before the onset of illness, and response to medication is often limited. from wikipedia Like me they were actually thinking i had depression with psychotic features instead of schizophrenia because i showed so many of only the negative symptoms. but i did have positive symptoms especially in middle school, i thought i had powers given to me from the gods and that i know the TRUE meaning of life, that i was some kind of demigod, stuff like that, paranoia, thinking i could think to people and they could think back to me, but no one ever really knew because i never told anyone. but most of those thoughts just seemed to concede to what little rationality i had, which i still find weird. also i have never abuse any kind of substance
well what im trying to say is that you dont need all the symptoms of schizophrenia to be a schizophrenic just as long as you have maybe 1 positive symptom and negative symptoms you are okay
i want to stop taking my medication, have my schizophrenia take over again, feel the emotion of depression lead me into death because i just believe i am not suppose to live. Death was always a better option for me, im just too slow, too stupid to survive anyways, i can barely do anything without it taking a long amount of time, even something like putting on a bed sheet takes me a while. I just think it would be better if i died, should have realized that the whole thing i was thinking about at age 7 about having brain tumors and dying at 18 was just a way of telling myself that i shouldn't be here. 4 years later i wanted to commit suicide but i just didn't know how or what i would do. The psychiatrist even said that i wouldn't be able to do much and i could get social security now. My mom asks me occasionally if i just want to be locked in a hospital for the rest of my life under constant supervision instead of go to school when i screw up. why? what would that even do other than waste everyone's time and money? just to keep me alive? thats worse than me just killing myself.
medication is still in my brain just waiting for my depression to kick back in, maybe find out if i could get a gun or something just end it now, since a gun is quick and efficient and my death is something that has to happen im okay with it.
but knowing there isn't anything any of you could do anyways
what do you think?
couldn't help to read the mental illness part
here is an easy way to determine if you are doing it right
look at my about me page then think about the character
Well, like I said, it's how you make it. He could try and be happy with it, or be miserable.
okay
working 2 jobs on the weekdays
16 hours a day of work doesnt sound pretty nightmarish to you? how about if its some low paying job that you dislike? with people who are mean to you?
oh just suck it up and enjoy it you say
actually
tell me how you would be happy in a situation like that?
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Drow Ranger
the next poster likes creepypastas
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maybe if you are the one making the shirt but that would be more of a representation of your hobby of creating shirts rather than you being what your shirt portrays
if i remember right the professor was talking about how uniforms are worn in schools, because when you are somewhat equal in outward appearances you only have your personality (or as he said mind and soul) to show for who you really are. instead of viewing someone in some shallow way just by what they are wearing, that you are more than just what you wear
but i really dont care what i am wearing as long as its appropriate (not tiny shorts that i see some girls wearing, but thats a whole different psychological/sociological story now isnt it?)
but then again my brain isnt what it used to be, over the year out of high school barely being able to pass even 2 classes of community college.
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and cat, you look over there anywhere just not directly at me because thats kinda creepy
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the next poster knows how to do a simple wrist lock
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so its not always, the government is after me, i see dead people, im going try to juggle chainsaw underneath babies kind of thing.
it can mostly be negative symptoms which are
Negative symptoms are deficits of normal emotional responses or of other thought processes, and respond less well to medication.[8] They commonly include flat or blunted affect and emotion, poverty of speech (alogia), inability to experience pleasure (anhedonia), lack of desire to form relationships (asociality), and lack of motivation (avolition). Research suggests that negative symptoms contribute more to poor quality of life, functional disability, and the burden on others than do positive symptoms.[20] People with prominent negative symptoms often have a history of poor adjustment before the onset of illness, and response to medication is often limited.
from wikipedia
Like me they were actually thinking i had depression with psychotic features instead of schizophrenia
because i showed so many of only the negative symptoms.
but i did have positive symptoms especially in middle school, i thought i had powers given to me from the gods and that i know the TRUE meaning of life, that i was some kind of demigod, stuff like that, paranoia, thinking i could think to people and they could think back to me, but no one ever really knew because i never told anyone.
but most of those thoughts just seemed to concede to what little rationality i had, which i still find weird. also i have never abuse any kind of substance
well what im trying to say is that you dont need all the symptoms of schizophrenia to be a schizophrenic just as long as you have maybe 1 positive symptom and negative symptoms you are okay
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yeah sorry wrong thread
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medication is still in my brain just waiting for my depression to kick back in, maybe find out if i could get a gun or something just end it now, since a gun is quick and efficient and my death is something that has to happen im okay with it.
but knowing there isn't anything any of you could do anyways
what do you think?
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here is an easy way to determine if you are doing it right
look at my about me page then think about the character
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appendix or tonsils?
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never mind
well i called some girl mommy once when i was about that age
that was kinda weird
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okay
working 2 jobs on the weekdays
16 hours a day of work doesnt sound pretty nightmarish to you? how about if its some low paying job that you dislike? with people who are mean to you?
oh just suck it up and enjoy it you say
actually
tell me how you would be happy in a situation like that?