I took counselling for depression, and it helped a bit. But what really kept me from suicide was realizing everyone who was making my life miserable is a fool and not worth my time (I was bullied, your situation is quite different). Point is, take counselling.
I took counselling for depression, and it helped a bit. But what really kept me from suicide was realizing everyone who was making my life miserable is a fool and not worth my time (I was bullied, your situation is quite different). Point is, take counselling.
People can get depressed from doing weed. And its bad for you.
Then continue to take counseling.
Well what I really want is an out of body experience and weed is the closest I can get to that feeling without doing shrooms (which I would rather not.)
Counseling doesn't seem to help but my moms making me go once a week anyways
Well what I really want is an out of body experience and weed is the closest I can get to that feeling without doing shrooms (which I would rather not.)
Counseling doesn't seem to help but my moms making me go once a week anyways
Weed may be what caused this, as it is known to cause depression. Smoking also will cause cancer and lung problems. Just don't do it, for your own good.
Weed may be what caused this, as it is known to cause depression. Smoking also will cause cancer and lung problems. Just don't do it, for your own good.
I know but it's the closest thing that will take me out of reality. I don't do it much. I have only smoked like 20 times top (most likely 10 or something.)
I know but it's the closest thing that will take me out of reality. I don't do it much. I have only smoked like 20 times top (most likely 10 or something.)
We want you in reality though :sad.gif:
Do you want to live a happy life with your family? First thing you can do is stop with the weed.
Well I want to be in a magical land where there is nothing but fun.
You don't need weed, you need
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You took it the wrong way. What I meant is it can only entertain so much. I could imagine that cutting a metal rod in half is creating a new species but how does that actually entertain me?
Two things to compensate for pot without any repercussions
Dopamine: Naturally produced by the brain, practically blocks out all emotions but happiness and silliness. Effects last as long as you want them to. Usually occurs from doing silly/funny stuff. Note: Drugs including caffeine, pot, and alchohol will impede your abilities to make dopamine.
Lucid dreaming: Allows you to do ANYTHING. When I say anything, I'm not exaggerating. You'll need to train yourself for this. Some help for lucid dreaming can be found here.
Two things to compensate for pot without any repercussions
Dopamine: Naturally produced by the brain, practically blocks out all emotions but happiness and silliness. Effects last as long as you want them to. Usually occurs from doing silly/funny stuff. Note: Drugs including caffeine, pot, and alchohol will impede your abilities to make dopamine.
Lucid dreaming: Allows you to do ANYTHING. When I say anything, I'm not exaggerating. You'll need to train yourself for this. Some help for lucid dreaming can be found here.
Well I drink a LOT of coke so I probably can't make much dopamine in my brain. If I stop drinking coke will it respawn? Hm?
I just had a conversation with her and told her that I feel like no one understands me, she said "It's because you shut them out" then I said "I feel like I can't tell them anything or they will judge me" which kind of gave the hint that I'm afraid she will judge me so she said "Whatever you say, if I judge you I would be a hypocrite. Everyone has secrets."
So I think she has the idea that I have some secrets that I'm scared to tell her.
Good! You'll work your way there...
You do understand that she told you that she can handle your secrets, right? And she just told you that she would not reject you for them?
I do hope you'll eventually tell her what you need to tell her. But like I said... you'll work your way there.
Her answers were actually very insightful... I think you guys will have a good connection someday.
The only thing I really want to do is be a musician. To actually experience life I think I would have to have a car and live on my own so I can do what I want whenever I want.
Then practice! Practice, practice, practice. Learn the music you want to learn. Try to find other people interested in it.
As for car and living on your own... that all comes in time. Patience is a very good trait to learn.
I told her I hate my life because that is what I was trying to tell her when we were talking but she didn't really understand that I was trying to say that. I said I was fine because honestly, I was. I was just telling her how I felt. I wasn't really making myself unhappy either. I didn't want her to worry but I still wanted to let her know how I felt considering that I had to tell someone.
I know. But as shown above, you're making progress.
She does sympathize for me but I'm not her main priority is what I was trying to say. I am afraid she will reject me of other things, not that she has. So what I mean by "She doesn't sympathize for me as much as you think she does" I meant that she doesn't help me out as much as you think and isn't willing to do anything, I didn't mean that she has rejected me.
You really underestimate moms. :wink.gif:
You guys are everything she has lived for since you guys were born. She has raised and loved you since you were a baby... many, many years. Can you imagine spending the next X (your age) number of years with someone? Don't just disregard that. It takes time. It takes commitment. It takes unconditional love.
Of course every adult has priorities... work, friends, relaxing, and children... but don't ever think that just because she has to do those things that she wouldn't drop everything to help you, if you needed it. (Although, sometimes work requires people to do certain things and can't be 'dropped' instantly.)
If she believed you really needed help with something, I'm sure she would try to help you if she can.
Maybe it doesn't seem like it to you, because of whatever... but she's obviously been there for you in everything you've told us so far. I see no reason, at all, to believe she wouldn't be there when you need her.
The thing about the country, or Earth itself, is that there is money, jobs, and grades. Not just do what you want and do whatever you want to be happy. So the laws are restricting me somewhat. I have to have a job the rest of my life and there are no enjoyable jobs (in my opinion) that will pay a decent amount unless I get famous for making music or something. You never know what it is like after death. Maybe nothing or maybe more, or maybe I'm in a dream...inception o-o
Don't worry about those things too much. Grades are important while you're in school, and working for money is important when you're older... but you can't worry too much about those things or you simply won't enjoy life.
And yeah, it sucks to work every day at a boring or stupid job... that's why you need to do what you want to do, and enjoy what you do. The earlier you begin doing those things, the better you'll be, the better you are the more you'll be able to do and the more options you'll have and the less those things will actually matter to you.
Like you said you want to be a musician. So be a musician. Don't worry about the money musicians make, or trying to find a 'job' as a musician, you'll find a way to get by. Everyone does.
But the important thing is to enjoy whatever you do. If playing music is all you want to do, and no one will give you a job, go play on a street corner for spare change if you think that'd be fun to do. Just do it. Who cares what anyone else might think?
It's just called 'living'. Do things that truly make you happy. Not the things that 'make you happy for a little while', but do the things that make you happy now and in the future.
Eh not really. Why?
Things will get better eventually, you'll have to pull through.
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What's wrong with weed?
I am taking counselling...
People can get depressed from doing weed. And its bad for you.
Then continue to take counseling.
Thinking about coming a mod to simply not moderate.
Well what I really want is an out of body experience and weed is the closest I can get to that feeling without doing shrooms (which I would rather not.)
Counseling doesn't seem to help but my moms making me go once a week anyways
Weed may be what caused this, as it is known to cause depression. Smoking also will cause cancer and lung problems. Just don't do it, for your own good.
I know but it's the closest thing that will take me out of reality. I don't do it much. I have only smoked like 20 times top (most likely 10 or something.)
We want you in reality though :sad.gif:
Do you want to live a happy life with your family? First thing you can do is stop with the weed.
Thinking about coming a mod to simply not moderate.
Well I want to be in a magical land where there is nothing but fun.
I do that all the time, without drugs.
It's called dopamine.
I know dopamine is in the brain and what not but no idea what it actually does.
You don't need weed, you need
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Imagination can only do so much.
I can't believe you just said that.
You took it the wrong way. What I meant is it can only entertain so much. I could imagine that cutting a metal rod in half is creating a new species but how does that actually entertain me?
Dopamine: Naturally produced by the brain, practically blocks out all emotions but happiness and silliness. Effects last as long as you want them to. Usually occurs from doing silly/funny stuff. Note: Drugs including caffeine, pot, and alchohol will impede your abilities to make dopamine.
Lucid dreaming: Allows you to do ANYTHING. When I say anything, I'm not exaggerating. You'll need to train yourself for this. Some help for lucid dreaming can be found here.
Well I drink a LOT of coke so I probably can't make much dopamine in my brain. If I stop drinking coke will it respawn? Hm?
Good! You'll work your way there...
You do understand that she told you that she can handle your secrets, right? And she just told you that she would not reject you for them?
I do hope you'll eventually tell her what you need to tell her. But like I said... you'll work your way there.
Her answers were actually very insightful... I think you guys will have a good connection someday.
Then practice! Practice, practice, practice. Learn the music you want to learn. Try to find other people interested in it.
As for car and living on your own... that all comes in time. Patience is a very good trait to learn.
I know. But as shown above, you're making progress.
You really underestimate moms. :wink.gif:
You guys are everything she has lived for since you guys were born. She has raised and loved you since you were a baby... many, many years. Can you imagine spending the next X (your age) number of years with someone? Don't just disregard that. It takes time. It takes commitment. It takes unconditional love.
Of course every adult has priorities... work, friends, relaxing, and children... but don't ever think that just because she has to do those things that she wouldn't drop everything to help you, if you needed it. (Although, sometimes work requires people to do certain things and can't be 'dropped' instantly.)
If she believed you really needed help with something, I'm sure she would try to help you if she can.
Maybe it doesn't seem like it to you, because of whatever... but she's obviously been there for you in everything you've told us so far. I see no reason, at all, to believe she wouldn't be there when you need her.
Don't worry about those things too much. Grades are important while you're in school, and working for money is important when you're older... but you can't worry too much about those things or you simply won't enjoy life.
And yeah, it sucks to work every day at a boring or stupid job... that's why you need to do what you want to do, and enjoy what you do. The earlier you begin doing those things, the better you'll be, the better you are the more you'll be able to do and the more options you'll have and the less those things will actually matter to you.
Like you said you want to be a musician. So be a musician. Don't worry about the money musicians make, or trying to find a 'job' as a musician, you'll find a way to get by. Everyone does.
But the important thing is to enjoy whatever you do. If playing music is all you want to do, and no one will give you a job, go play on a street corner for spare change if you think that'd be fun to do. Just do it. Who cares what anyone else might think?
It's just called 'living'. Do things that truly make you happy. Not the things that 'make you happy for a little while', but do the things that make you happy now and in the future.