I dont know if this is the right place to post but I wanted to get thoughts from others.
I would like to make it clear im not getting brain washed by the 90% of sales or the limited edition items and crates.
It first started of being tricked but I quickly learned about it, in 2018 I played an skyblock server it had other game modes but thats what I played. I got paid £50 every 3 months from college and I would spend 100% of that on this server I probably spend about 100-150. The server is no longer up but it was a big network.
From that ive spend things here and there thats not to bad on a couple of servers 10-30 on a few.
Most recently I bought top rank on a cracked mc server that gets thousands of players it cost about 25, I upgraded through 3 ranks but recently quit to do too toxic in the pvp community. but i got like 3-5 months out of the top rank
Next was a prison server, I spent about 65 usd, its still but once again i don't really play as it got boring small server
Then there is the worst a network has two game modes but 4 servers, It has exploded in popularity hitting 500 players just today from a normal 200, I really like the server and do everything I can to support it. I answer like 30 questions a day without being staff, I have donated 150 usd including tax but the worst thing I only have gotten top rank and a few spawners and some op items. I dont even have an iron golem spawner but I still feel like donating to get iron golem spawners but its all a % chance. I know as soon as i spend lets say another 50 and hopefully get spawners in a month or two its probably gonna be reset or sold. I don't have a job but i get a small amount of income but im kinda worried if i do get a job the spending will increase a lot more
people will say just dont spend thats like telling depressed people just be happy
You have made step one and admitted to yourself that you have a problem with spending on servers, next is to speak to someone about it, be it family, friends, even a college lecturer or someone who can sit down with you and help you objectively work out why and how to move on
I just had a long conversation with my dad [im 20] I wont go into details but, What im going to do is take out most of my money out of the bank and have it as cash in a draw because I dont really go out and spend money. I do pay rent currently but we talked about me paying more for other things, and saving up for a car, and I need to start paying for my own driving lessons. End of the day if I dont have the money in the bank i cant buy things on servers.