I will not disclose what this project is, it may seem strange reading this but strange people exist :D. I will update the post with a link to it if I ever do complete it.
There has been something I've been wanting to do since freshmen year. It's now over 4 years later and college starts within 2 days. It's been in my mind every day never leaving since last I've stopped. I have not really been that happy since. Some days I just didn't feel like I had any emotion but rather an empty feeling in me, when I did have any it was usually anger and irritation. It probably didn't help playing video games every night (Didn't want to but usually I did this so that I can get a quiet time to work, although by the time night came I got addicted.)
I'm not entirely sure what happened but I believe I know the general reason of it. Anxiouty, stress and worry have had a big impact along with possibly ocd and being discouraged from doing it. (Thinking the ocd was caused by worrying about it, basically it turned into repetitive thoughts which made it extremely hard to visualize things at times.)
Now if I see anything similar to it I completely avoid that object. This goes with movies and games or even knowledge. I've avoided fallout 4 because of it. I'm just afraid that I can't move on without completing this.
I'm wanting to go back and continue working on this project but I fear it may be to late now. I remember a lot about it and documented quite a bit but am no longer in the same mindset that it was created in. I'm afraid that it won't be as good as it used to be or that it's just simply to late. The main thing about it I sometimes (a lot) have problems still visualising it.
I probably will still try, I don't think I can move on with my life if I don't
Closing note
What do you think internet?
Why tell the internet? Sometimes it's easier to be vague with people who you have and will never have a connection to or even meet. Also don't let extreme stress go unnoticed by others, talk to some one or go see a consouler.
Well, if you really want to go through with this project (the nature of which you didn't specify) then by all means go through with it. The only person holding you back is yourself.
I will also say that if not doing this project is causing you stress and things, but you know you;re not going to do it, then you need to find a way to get away from it and forget about it. Maybe finding a quite space or getting into a relaxing hobby might help you out if you wanna forget about it.
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All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost
The old that is strong does not wither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost
From the ashes a fire shall be woken, A light from the shadows shall spring
Renewed shall be the blade that was broken, The crownless again shall be king
I will not disclose what this project is, it may seem strange reading this but strange people exist :D. I will update the post with a link to it if I ever do complete it.
There has been something I've been wanting to do since freshmen year. It's now over 4 years later and college starts within 2 days. It's been in my mind every day never leaving since last I've stopped. I have not really been that happy since. Some days I just didn't feel like I had any emotion but rather an empty feeling in me, when I did have any it was usually anger and irritation. It probably didn't help playing video games every night (Didn't want to but usually I did this so that I can get a quiet time to work, although by the time night came I got addicted.)
I'm not entirely sure what happened but I believe I know the general reason of it. Anxiouty, stress and worry have had a big impact along with possibly ocd and being discouraged from doing it. (Thinking the ocd was caused by worrying about it, basically it turned into repetitive thoughts which made it extremely hard to visualize things at times.)
Now if I see anything similar to it I completely avoid that object. This goes with movies and games or even knowledge. I've avoided fallout 4 because of it. I'm just afraid that I can't move on without completing this.
I'm wanting to go back and continue working on this project but I fear it may be to late now. I remember a lot about it and documented quite a bit but am no longer in the same mindset that it was created in. I'm afraid that it won't be as good as it used to be or that it's just simply to late. The main thing about it I sometimes (a lot) have problems still visualising it.
I probably will still try, I don't think I can move on with my life if I don't
Closing note
What do you think internet?
Why tell the internet? Sometimes it's easier to be vague with people who you have and will never have a connection to or even meet. Also don't let extreme stress go unnoticed by others, talk to some one or go see a consouler.
Well, if you really want to go through with this project (the nature of which you didn't specify) then by all means go through with it. The only person holding you back is yourself.
I will also say that if not doing this project is causing you stress and things, but you know you;re not going to do it, then you need to find a way to get away from it and forget about it. Maybe finding a quite space or getting into a relaxing hobby might help you out if you wanna forget about it.
All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost
The old that is strong does not wither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost
From the ashes a fire shall be woken, A light from the shadows shall spring
Renewed shall be the blade that was broken, The crownless again shall be king